Day 6

Well since I never got back yesterday I'll finish my Day 5 first...

I watched a few Hallmark Channel movies in the morning so that kept my mind of eating anything bad. The day went pretty smooth. Lazy day hung out in my jammies the whole day :) The night was kinda hard, I was pretty hungry and then I took a shower before bed but I got very dizzy and overheated and weak. Ken grabbed me a glass of cold water and a few carrots. Didn't like the way that felt but considering how little I've been eating and the shower and the fact that Aunt Flow showed up and as usual is reeking havoc on my body. I felt better when I woke up this morning. 

Oh and no cheating!

ok Day 6

So my monthly unwanted visitor is NOT being nice to me today. I have been SUPER grumpy. And I have been hungry all day even with eating a ton of cabbage and apples. I went to the grocery store and yikes that was hell. I swear Satan was following me around saying "ohhh look at all this food. you're all by yourself. no one would ever know." But I would know and when Ken started up with his "Baby I'm so proud of you, you're doing awesome, blah blah blah" I would feel like a total shit head if I cheated.  I put the scale away because I was getting obsessive compulsive and stepping on it every hour, like that does any good.

So Day 6 and still no cheating!

Day 5

Stepped on the scale this morning and it says 256 so that is 7lbs since Tues. I hope this scale is right, cause if this is the progress I'm gonna make, I may be able to stick with this crazy diet. I originally just typed "hard diet" but then erased it because other than Day 3 with the bad milk, it hasn't really been "hard", difficult at times but not overly "hard". I've been praying about it so I'm thinking I've had some help. Not too mention that Ken is literally an angel about it all. 

Side note: Every other tv commercial is a food commercial. The other ones are diet commercials. Crazy!

Bought a scale today LOL

Day 4

Well Day 4 was a helluva lot better than Day 3! The soy milk, while not awesome, was not bad. I put some honey and cinnamon in it and it was a lot easier to drink. Those stupid brownies at work will still were hollering at me but I held strong. 

No cheating and I bought a scale today and I've lost 4 lbs. So that makes me feel optimistic. 

Oh funny story: last night I'm laying in bed and Ken is laying there snoring and all I can think about are the 2 Twinkies in the pantry. I don't even LOVE Twinkies but I'm thinking...hmmm everyone is asleep I could go eat a Twinkie and no one would know. Then I think NO don't. Hmm I'm kinda thirsty. NO don't get out of bed. I was having a argument with my self over a damn Twinkie. NO! NO! NO! I finally fell asleep. Whew....this is hard. 

Tomorrow Ken works in the morning and I'll be home alone...I'll probably be having some more of those arguments in my head. LOL

Day 2 cont.

Well I made it through the day but it was hard. I got a horrible headache again. There were sandwiches and chips and brownies at work today. I was so tempted because I was VERY hungry. But I didn't eat anything, just kept drinking my tea. I wasn't very good about the balls today, I was so busy I kept looking track of time. After work I stopped and at Kroger and bought some soy milk and some rice milk since I can use that as a substitute for whole milk. I tried them both, the soy tastes better but they are both drinkable. I checked the date on the whole milk and it's 1/24/11 but there was a big curd of crap stuck to the side so I'm guessing it's no good. Not sure I can try again, I may just stick with the soy. 

I still have a headache but I took some Excedrin and it's starting to get better. Iron Man is on tv so I'll just concentrate on Robert Downey Jr for a while ;)

Side note: walking through a grocery store I never realized how much food is there! Holy Moly!

Day 3

Has been BAD!

I got up late today, forgot to rub my balls, so was late with that. Was super hungry. I grabbed the milk that Ken bought last night and poured it into the mug thingy. I have been super hungry all morning but dreading the milk. Noon comes and I get the milk out of the frig, open it up and there are little while curd things on the top. GROSS! So I scoop them out figuring that must be normal it is fat milk afterall. Took a sip GAG, put some vanilla and cinnamon in, gag, more, gag, honey, gag. I downed like half at one time. HURL I feel like going in the bathroom and puking. It was so horrible, I pured it out couldn't do it. It tasted like it was spoiled or something. I talked to Ken and asked him if he looked at the date on the milk. nope of course not. Dear GOD I hope it is spoiled because if that's what it normally tastes like I will NOT be doing this. I just can't. My stomach is in knots right now. I started crying on the phone because I was pretty optimistic until now and I'm gonna start my period soon so you know I'm a hormonal mess not too mention my body is freaking out.

I hate today and want to go home and eat a fucking cheeseburger!

Hopefully I will post something positive later.

Day 2

Ok now I'm current....

Wednesday, January 19th

My day was pretty much the same as Day 1 but without the headache thankfully. I am a little crabbier I'm noticing. And right now as I'm typing this I'm hungry but I didn't have much of a dinner. Made BBQ Brats for the rest of the non-fat people in the house. Man I wanted a bite!

Oh and my lovely coworker (j/k she actually is lovely) brought in a bag of Reese's Peanut Butter Cups and put them in the kitchen at work....those things were haunting me all day and they are still there. ughh

I did snap once while making dinner I went to pull a pan out of the cabinet and AS USUAL everything fell out at me. Since Ashley does the dishes I flipped out on her. I apologized later but you know how annoying that is normally; now add the fact that in two days you've barely eaten anything and you're trying to cook dinner for other people....well SNAP!

Everything on track, no cheating. I did forget to rub my balls at 9, so I did it at 9:30. Maybe that's why I'm so hungry. Hmmm

Tomorrow is my first "milk day" so not looking forward to it even though all I hear is that they are the easiest.

The Cost

I forgot to let ya'll know the cost. It's pricey... the first visit was $150 and each next visit is $75. The vitamins they want you to take (but are optional) are $50.

So gotta be serious...that's too much money to waste.

Day 1

Tuesday, January 18th

So I woke up and first thing I did as required was "rub my balls" lol it's become the joke around here the last few days.  I got up got ready, got the girls ready, made myself a cup of tea w/honey and packed my cabbage & apple lunch. I drank 2 more cups of tea by noon and then I had lunch apple and then I salt & peppered the cabbage - not too bad actually I would have thought raw cabbage would be blahhhh but it's better than lettuce and has more substance to it. I continued to rub my balls every two hours and then when I left work and got home I ate more cabbage & apples while making the rest of the fam dinner. In all honesty I didn't feel hungry all day but man that dinner smelled sooooo good. I ended up having the headache from HELL and had to take an Excedrin Migraine and went to bed. Luckily that most wonderful man of mine rubbed my neck and head until I fell asleep. I'm so blessed :)

I did everything exact on day 1...no cheating!

P.S. They said that every time you cheat "putting anything other than approved stuff in your mouth" sets you back one full day of progress. SO not worth it!

The Decision

Ok, I'm a few days behind so I'll start from the begining. 

Monday, January 17th: I made the decision to do something drastic about my weight. My back has been really hurting me (I had back surgery in Dec '09) I feel like crap physically & emotionally all the time. And I REALLY didn't want to be a fat bride when I marry the most wonderful man in the world. Ken has been telling me for months about this diet thing he hears on the Christian radio station he listens to. So I decided to research it and I read up on it and read all the reviews. It's pretty drastic but if it works the results will be amazing and well worth it. Sadkhin Complex  In all honesty the website is totally cheesy and not informative at all. So I goggled it and read personal reviews about it to find out what it entails. I called and made an appointment for that night and Ken and I went and learned about it and I decided to sign up.

Here's the gist of it:

There are these 2 stainless steel balls that are adhered on pressure points behind the ears. Every two hours you press on them and do 40 rotations. This is supposed to relieve hunger pains and help detox two of your organs. 

The first 10 days you are on a strict detox. So for 2 days you eat twice a day consisting of only raw cabbage, carrots & green apples. You drink 6 to 9 cups of tea with honey (2-3 tsp per cup) per day. Then the next two days you only drink the tea and then 2.5 cups of WHOLE milk. Which frankly  makes me want to GAG! But they gave me a recipe where I can use vanilla extract and cinnamon to make it taste better - supposedly! No food on these days. So you alternate two days fruit & vegetable and two days milk. Sounds difficult, huh?

After the first 10 days you go in and they reposition the steel balls to a different pressure point, give you more of a fruit & vegetable selection and you begin vitamins. Also at this time you are supposed to begin walking daily 30 to 40 min. Oh and you can only eat twice a day between 12 and 6.

This process repeats until you reach your goal weight. Then you begin a maintenance program when they start introducing other foods like fish and such.

They say if followed exactly you can loose up to 10% of your body weight in the first 10 days. I weighed in at 263lbs so that could be 27lbs in 10 days. Wouldnt that be something?

Wish me luck!